Evolutionary Consideration

so far so good old man.

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 Evolutionary Consideration

 The idea for this magical guitar project grew from a number of plans and ideas I cultivated with the idea of promoting my artwork and my own interests; with the intention of ultimately earning money so that I can make real change in the manner I have existed for the past few decades. By this I mean that with only myself to consider, I have become adept in living in the moment; and earning the dough to pay my bills as I need it, and without being bound to a low paid job that may be available to one with my own 'slender' credentials.

 As in life, some of the reasons that inspired me to create this magical guitar have dissipated in the circumstances since beginning this blog and project, while others sprang up in their place; and while there have been winning aspects that satisfy my intentions, still for me success so often presents more sorrow than failure does at last.

 This and every aspect of my predicament is only a product symptomatic of my whole life. I exist only by force of my own intent in a prolonged battle against having everything I or most men dream of having: a prosperous life and career with a wonderful family and all the shit. You may well see me as a willful 8 year old who won't come in from the storm, a man constructing an equation excluding uncertain disjunctions, in a society that is constituted almost entirely of them.

 Any woman can tell immediately exactly what I need. For twenty five years so many of them have been kind, some have offered to relieve my suffering for good, but the terror that has ignited in me has prevented me from starting something that my mania convinced me then that no woman could long endure. My practice, my artwork brings me routinely in and out of altered states of consciousness; brought on solely by my own intent in finding, observing, collecting and assimilating life around my world that is seen and that is sometimes unseen.

 Now my year of turning around has seen me do my best to return to crispy crazy modern manhood. Still I feel like the way is mined on all sides with compromise and deceit and most painfully I can only see that these must again become my own. That is if  I am to find my hearts lil' dagger, sweet asp, amazing wife.